I don’t think I’d touched one in a couple weeks, so last night I finally did a thing.

  Yes, I have neglected the desk for a bit, not by design, but simply through not enough hours in the day for the most part.

  Returning to work after a 2 year absence has been mostly very good, with a couple bumps, but I feel I’ve been handling it pretty well, not perfectly, but so much better than I have in a long time, and I see improvement every day.

  So, after one of those up and down days, tired but mind still busy- ramped up, but not stressed over it, at least not negatively, I got out of bed after lying there for an hour, quietly went downstairs at 11:30ish and got the decals placed in this TIE fighter cockpit.

Thinking about that post and what it is, what it means to me, and what  might come out of it as a result, doesn’t have me anxious.  Not anymore.  I’m maybe a little eager, even.   My fighting spirit has found itself and is preparing.

  I’m calmer.  I feel strong, not at 100% yet, but as I keep doing these positive things in my life, including my family and my true friends more, I only get and feel stronger.  More confident, more hopeful and eager to keep that roll going.

  The models help, giving me a focus to work on that can slow things down in my mind, and requires just enough concentration to keep that mind away from other things. It’s something I can do quietly while the house is sleeping.  All in all, after an hour those decals were placed, the parts test fit for appearance, and I was able to fall asleep within minutes of hitting the pillow.

It was still a good day.

  Stay safe, all.  You are NOT alone.  No Worries.