Just a note for those wondering: if I’ve learned anything lately, it’s that the brain is a fuckton more complex than anyone realizes, especially myself.

Since the beginning of the year, I’ve seen multiple mental health professionals, had to change my family doctor, and begun a shaky return to work in a profession that has a very low success rate in long term leave returns.

The counselors and psychiatric pros have helped, but getting and accessing those in a meaningful way was never simple, especially for men, and worse since 2020.

My new doctor is treating me for depression, anxiety and ADD which may have been undiagnosed since I was a kid- I just found ways of making my way and coping on my own until other factors finally piled in and broke me last year.

So, while all this is going on and I’m trying to learn how to cope with something I never expected but have half a lifetime living with, I recognize that my thoughts and activities have been erratic, or inconsistent.

I’m not trying to ignore anyone, really, but I am navigating my way back to being who I really am, or ought to be. If I don’t answer a message, or get out a post, don’t worry too much- I don’t really forget anything, I just have so much on the go at once that I find myself needing to compartmentalize things and only tackle what I can without being overwhelmed.

So, while I keep figuring out how to unravel the mess upstairs and get my ADD reined in, I’m just trucking along, trying to soak up the bumps in the road on the way. No worries, stay safe out there.